No Secret Castle

©1989 Andrew Calhoun, recorded on Phoenix Envy.
Also recorded by Hugh Blumenfeld on his album Rocket Science

Once we were so happy, once we were so young
Life just gets bigger and bigger
I feel I've got no tongue

There's no hardship I won't bear, no tear I will not cry
There's no box I would not open
No place I would not fly

There's a sailor on the ocean, who has stolen all the songs
The ones I used to write you
Delerious and long

But there's no secret castle, and I have no magic key
There is nothing I can give you
Without you loving me

Every time I feel the spirit moving in my heart
I will bend myself to hear it
I will leave you in dark

I'll forget about the morning, I'll forget to make the bed
In the evening there's a warning
And an oven full of bread

I've been searching for the fountain, while drinking at the dregs
I've been hiding on the mountain
Where the eagle lays her eggs

And it's like I am struck dumb
And you are deaf and blind
There's nothing I can give you
That I have not been to find